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Okay.. it seems like ages & ages since i last been here..
I guess i am not those who can sit infront of the computer screen the whole day just to blog or write stuff down...
Anyhow.. just feel like bloging today.. so just drop by n clean my webs on my blog.. heehee..
okay.. what do i have to write here..
let's see.. lots of things have been happening around me..
Mostly Bad.. nothing much of good to write...
*sigh* I guess it will be all started with my close aunt n uncle got in a motorcyle accident on Sunday Morning... then followed by a good buddy of mine having some personal problems.. and then today... haiz.. another of my very close friend also having the same problem. OMG.. what have the world been doing lately??
So many things.. yet it seems that my friends ard me.. all having some of thier own problems..
Although i am having alot better life in camp now.. There are lots of politics that i still hate..
Nothing much i can do about it.. but one thing for sure... i just can't wait to ORD.. Will be going for my Operation on this coming Monday.. If i am to say i am not afaid.. i will be lying.. Then again, i am not that worried of my operation.. Funny feelings.. lots of thought in it.. just feel like a kind of emptiness.. Just been to my friend's church recently.. kinda bring back lots of memories.. WIth my old friends .. I wondered how have they been doing..
I guess to me.. life here is rather short.. its just like a turn of an eye.. i am going to be 23... i remembered that i used to tell myself.. no worries.. i still have a lot of time to do things.. i don't know now.. but i just find time flies way to fast for me to really do much..
one day = 24 hours = 1440 mins = 86400 secs.. its like so so scary.. so fast.. time just ticks by n by.. without knowing... it just goes.. So much things to do.. but so little time to spare..
I don't even know what am i trying to say now. . . Oh man.... It will surely be a long time later that i will be back here to post something.. i am just lost for now...
The one good thing that i can remember that happened to me recently is that i have met up with an old friend... Glad that she still remembers me.. i have already thought that she had forgotten me for good.. hehe.. well i guess fate was good to me.. met up in a bus .. didn't even expect to see her. haha. she's still the same as ever, blur like sotong.. heehee.. felt really great seeing her.. well.. i think if there is a chance.. i hope not to lose her again.. maybe i guess.
OKay.. i think my mind is already going nuts.. i am not in a correct state of mind to post any more stuff.. if i ever keep continuing.. i think i will not finish... i just wish to see all my friends n family ard me. be very happy.. cos if they are.. so am i............
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Woah
haha... now its like so fast. .
the last time i ever seem to blog is like ages.. haha..
its like a funny feeling.. reading through my blog...
like the times had been flashed back...
so speechless.. unfounded.. don't even know what am i talking about now...
Hmm... well.. let's see...
hopefully i can still be able to write some stuff... about my webby.. haha...
Left with only a few more months.. yesh.. from a 2 n 1/2 yrs torture.. to just a few more months.. still long but not so long.. and neither short.. in between...
so far.. i had seen many good buddies in camp... come n go already.. its like a pasting of life.. i really don't know when will i be abt to meet up with some of them... but really will love to see them up one of the days.. well.. at least before i leave singapore... haha.. ya.. Leaving this horrible place... Going some where to relax.. n have lots of fun.. hopefully.. i can have the fun that i need.. haha.. ya...
er.. really don't know how to organise my thoughts... maybe willl be back later to say somemore.. haha...
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Relaxing Day at Camp
Haha... its been quite awhile since i last blogged...
hahah.. today's its like a day full with freedom...
hahha.. my HOD is on course and its like a day where all hell break lose..
hahha...
just so happy to post this blog..
Friday, May 21, 2004
Ending of another Tiring Week
Well.. Time just seems to slip away from me.
Without knowing and realising.. Its already Firday!!
Time and Tide waits for no man.. that's very true!!!
Haha... Well.. Just find that in my lousy camp, there are some warrant Officers
who are those who never lead by example.. they are there just to pick on people..
These are the people who i really despise and hate.. They should be blamed more than anyone else.. As a "Leader" They not only didn't show the others how to behave but yet go catch those that didn't do the right thing. The irony about this is that they themselves are not doing the right thing too.. Haiz.. i just don't bother..
THis organisation is really a upside down place.. filled with plenty of politics and all the rubbish...
hahah.. well.. what to do.. those who have signed on and remained as a warrant officer who only catch those who never do the right things but thyself also doing the wrong thing, aren't worth any respect at all!
That's all that i can mention about these lousy losers...
Hmm.. Just have no idea what will be my weekend like ....
Hopefully, it doesn't end like the last week one...
Almost fainted and died.. hahah...
LOts of stupid things and waste of time has been my last weekend..
Haiz.. Hope to look forward to something that i can find happiness in!!
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
First time Blogging in Camp
Interesting day at work today!
Got lots of yelling and scolding but all is not as bad as the end of the day...
Can't really say the reason out why.. but its of cos not a good thing...
Didn't really got a chance to blog the past few weeks as i have no idea why on earth is my blog being deleted.. damm...
Well.. Life at camp... never seem to be a joy for me...
Until now, my direct superior is still against me..
Whatever the reason for, i won't wanna to explore...
But no matter what.. i will not want to think about going to have my revenge or what so ever...
If i really did, Pls God, Up in the heaven above, help me forgive the stupid things that my superior is doing to me...
I just hope that i will not do anything stupid or foolish enough to disgrace my family..
OKay.. i think its enough about my lousy camp...
Wanna say something about my personal life.....
Hmm.. well.. sometimes i really envy those couples out there, holding hands and being so loving and blah blah blah..
But deep down inside me.. i just feel kinda empty.. don't know the reason why or what cause the emptiness but i just wanna find something to cover it up...
Things that i thought that won't change, changes....
Things that i thought that will change, doesn't...
For once i really hope for some good changes around me...
Something good that i can really look forward to..
But what is left installed for me, i have no idea at all...
hahah.. what an irony...
Sometimes i just don't know why am i so slow in reacting in certain situations...
Situations that can really change my life...
BUt always being a cautious me, won't seem to get me any where too...
Its like a cross road for me here...
Moving up, is not a wise choice
Going left, is a dead end
Turning right, is to no where
Looking back.... Alot of time being wasted down the drain...
Sometimes i just really don't know why....
Looking for something to satisfy my emptiness...
but its seem so so so far...
But when i think of how much have my character change, since i went into this "Organisation" ............. There are lots to reflect upon..........
My patience level.. not only drop.. but went head wire... out of my control...
My blood pressure... not only didn't maintain.. but went over board...
In my thoughts i did tell myself, i am just a little piece of shit in this shit hole..
Another few more months... actually still like 20 more to go... i will be back again.. in a world with human beings...
But every time i got a good scolding of which is what i find i didn't make the mistake, i just have to take the blame and yes... look like an idiot ... arrghh!!!
WHY am i back to talking about my work again... damm.. got to really get it out of my mind. =(
But one thing i will really like to thank God for is that he gives me a good family that really cares for me... My Father and brother and not forgeting my precious Sheltie...
hahah... Talking about my dog, he's sick this week... oh man.. my heart melted when i see him so not like himself....
Brought him to see the vet, he was diagnosed with a high fever and some foreign objects in his stomach.... hope that he will get well soon.... can't really bare the sad looking and sickly face i see when i reach home....
arghh......Sad thoughts again... haiz.. when will good things happen??
well.. can't really collect my thoughts for now.... Be back later if i can still think of any good thoughts..
Monday, May 17, 2004
Ho HO HO~~~
Yeah!! my Blog got mad one day and all went crazy!!!
damm.. i was so sian.. don't know where to start sia~~~
haha....
Thank Man Ed!!
Anyways... Drop me a sms when n where u wanna meet la~~
haha...
Well.. will be back again to post the latest update of my sucky life in camp~
See ya forks ard!
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Lay's potato crisps -$3 i think... gotta go check
yos bern, ur blog deleted itself out of its template... common prob... ive pasted a back up copy of ur template but its rather backdated. it shld be fixed now... hope uve got ur own backups otherwise u jus re-edit ur links nad ur tagboard again.
ps: eh... i damn free, meet for dinner lah. =)